Avalon "Everything To Me" I grew up in Sunday school I致e memorized the Golden Rule And how Jesus came to set the sinner free I know the story inside out I can tell you all about the path that led him up to Calvary But ask me why he loves me and I don稚 know what to say But I値l never be the same because he changed my life when he became Everything to me He痴 more than a story More than words on a page of history He痴 the air that I breathe The water I thirst for And the ground beneath my feet He痴 everything, everything to me We池e living in uncertain times And more and more I find that I知 aware of just how fragile life can be I want to tell the world I致e found a love that turned my life around They need to know that they can taste and see Now everyday I am praying just to give my heart away I want to live for Jesus so that someone else might see that He is Everything to me He痴 more than a story More than words on a page of history He痴 the air that I breathe The water I thirst for And the ground beneath my feet He痴 everything And looking back over my life at the end I値l go to meet you saying you致e been Everything to me More than a story More than words on a page of history You池e everything to me You池e more than a story More than words on a page of history You池e the air that I breathe The water I thirst for And the ground beneath my feet You池e everything to me I've been meditating on this song for some time. My walk with God is not where I want it to be at the moment. I've been neglecting my quiet time with Him, and I am feeling the affects of this silence. I need to give everything back to Him. It is very easy to forget Him, or to push Him aside when I am busy or having fun with friends. I've been getting compliments and "Jozu"s at work. It's not very hard to think: oh yea, I know I'm good, you should be happy that I'm the ALT here. Yes that sounds egotistical, but who doesn't like having their ego stroked once in awhile? Humbleness is another thing I need to work on. As the song played, I was struck by how similar it was to my relationship with God. I know the rules, I've grown up in Sunday school and learned the Bible inside and out at Christian school. I have all the head knowledge (I am useful in Bible trivia) that both schools have stuffed into it. Yet I am a weak Christian. My heart hesitates everyday. Away from my comfort bubble called family, friends and home, I find myself not alone, I have wonderful sisters in Christ that keep me accountable, but less assured in my walk. At home my circle was mainly Christian and I had many to go talk to or hang out with. At home I felt buffered though I knew the dangers and persecutions and the need, the almighty need, of the world for Jesus. Here away from my home and circle, I am on a limb, out facing the wind and the world. I am not alone, I know God will forever be with me, yet I cannot help but feel insignificant, unworthy and small. I found that falling into a routine is not good for me. Especially if that routine excludes God. For a while, I have been doing nothing but going to school and coming home to watch movies til I go to sleep. Now I find myself stagnant and stuck. What has God become to me? The world is poisonous. I long to rejoice once more with a heart bright for God. I want to fully believe that He is everything to me and much more than words on a page of history. I want to live for Jesus so that someone else might see that He is everything to me. Prayer: Once more He would be everything to me. I would spend more time talking to God and seeking Him. I will continue to learn patience and humbleness at school and elsewhere. I will be a beacon for my fellow teachers, overcome the language barrier and share Jesus with them without fear. I will be sensitive to all my students and do nothing or say anything that will compromise my belief in Jesus I will not hesitate to use Christian music or materials in class. After all, it is internationalization and Christ is part of me and my lifestyle. Discernment and sensitivity towards my fellow ALTs. |